I fell down a break-up rabbit hole There are two things I do not indulge in when I’m in a happy place in my life: playing the lottery and fortune-telling. I guess I subconsciously believe that a. A shit ton of money can fix any and everything and b. If…

Maybe forever… It’s been over a month since my most recent relationship ended. The ending of that relationship upset me because it felt so unnecessary and so premature. It was the first healthy relationship of my life and I wanted to hang on a little longer. Who am I kidding…

And other reasons I don’t have a man — I’m spiraling and I don’t know how to stop. It’s been 1 week and 1 day since my boyfriend of a year and a half plus change decided that our relationship was not going to work for him. I was invested in this relationship. I thought it was going to…

Unless we’re willing to give up a kidney I am currently in a period of transition and mourning. A very important relationship of mine just ended and I’m trying to make sense of how I feel, why it ended, and what I can do differently next time. I’m trying to…

The voice in my head that tries to give me bad advice It’s not me, it’s Her. She whispers to me all day long. When I’m feeling strong I can ignore her nonsense. …

Musings on mid-life break-ups — can’t someone just love me already? Oops, I did it again. I mean really, I didn’t do it so much as I saw the writing on the wall and forced the conversation. And once the topic was on the table, it was clear that he…

It couldn’t hurt For the love of all that is holy and good in this world, I am going through this shit again. I am dealing with the emotional aftermath of another relationship that did not end as I’d planned (because I didn’t plan for it to end). I had…

Fiction (the last of a 3-part series) “Goddamn fuck!” I nearly hit you — it wasn’t your fault. Where else are you supposed to stand and wait for your ride on the edge of an interstate? But the snow had made the pavement slicker than I thought — I almost…

Fiction (2nd of a 3-part series) “Maybe you should get out.” Your voice was so calm that I couldn’t readily make sense of your words. I felt as if I were in a tunnel a million miles away from you. You were becoming a memory as quickly as the snow…