I am player 392 and this is how I felt watching Episode 1 — I am 53 years old — Generation X — which means that not only do I remember the appearance and rise of MTV in my junior high years, I also remember MTV’s first reality TV show — The Real World. The Real World debuted in 1992 when I was a…

The stories we tell ourselves with pieces of metal and stone When I was eleven years old, my great-aunt died. Hoo Hoo was my grandmother’s sister and lived with my grandparents. Losing her was my second devastating loss in a short period of time. In January of that same year…

Sometimes it takes me a while to see the truth I thought what we had was different. It was different from anything I’d ever experienced, anyway. …

If I had no pride at all, that’s what I’d ask Why aren’t you here with me? Why did you leave? Why did you give up? Wasn’t what we had worth it? Wasn’t I worth it? These are the questions that I will never have answered. I hate myself for…

There has to be a better way Three years ago, when I first moved out of my house and ended my eighteen year marriage, my youngest daughter began exhibiting a lot of fears. …

Why is it so hard for me to be vulnerable? The first person I was ever able to love with all my heart was my oldest daughter. I was thirty-three years old and was completely broken open emotionally and spiritually when I became a mom. I couldn’t have the news…

Does this mean I have to put up a fence? There is a scar on my right knee that looks like a dark round bruise. I acquired it last summer dropping to my knees in my own driveway to save the life of my fourteen-year-old chihuahua terrier mix. I was…

It’s all unrealized gains and losses I thought my life was over at the age of twenty. I was a sophomore in college and profoundly unhappy with my marriage of two years. …

Listen carefully and you’ll hear it! The future is being created right here and now. Intellectually we all know this. We understand that what we do today affects what happens tomorrow. Seeds planted in the spring will bear fruit in the fall. Yada Yada Yada. What we often fail to…