If I had no pride at all, that’s what I’d ask Why aren’t you here with me? Why did you leave? Why did you give up? Wasn’t what we had worth it? Wasn’t I worth it? These are the questions that I will never have answered. I hate myself for…

There has to be a better way Three years ago, when I first moved out of my house and ended my eighteen year marriage, my youngest daughter began exhibiting a lot of fears. One of her worst fears during this time was that a “bad man” would break into our…

Why is it so hard for me to be vulnerable? The first person I was ever able to love with all my heart was my oldest daughter. I was thirty-three years old and was completely broken open emotionally and spiritually when I became a mom. I couldn’t have the news…

Does this mean I have to put up a fence? There is a scar on my right knee that looks like a dark round bruise. I acquired it last summer dropping to my knees in my own driveway to save the life of my fourteen-year-old chihuahua terrier mix. I was…

It’s all unrealized gains and losses I thought my life was over at the age of twenty. I was a sophomore in college and profoundly unhappy with my marriage of two years. Against all advice, I had married my high school boyfriend at eighteen and regretted the decision about a…

Listen carefully and you’ll hear it! The future is being created right here and now. Intellectually we all know this. We understand that what we do today affects what happens tomorrow. Seeds planted in the spring will bear fruit in the fall. Yada Yada Yada. What we often fail to…

Do we ever get over the fear of rejection? I have been a mother for twenty years now. I have hosted countless get- togethers, parties, sleep-overs, and celebrations for my daughters. Some elaborate, some last minute, some surprises, and one where the police threatened to close us down. And no…

And Left Him Speechless I married my first boyfriend a few months after graduating from high school. He was the only person I’d ever dated, and looking back on it, I realize that I married him more out of a sense of obligation and duty (since we’d dated for so…

There’s a trick I use I have done many seemingly impossible things in my life. At least at the time, in my own mind, they seemed impossible. I left an abusive marriage and moved out of state with nothing more than my clothes and my cat. I spent 2 weeks…