I’ve Spent Six Months Wondering Why My Relationship Ended
And then yesterday, a list revealed the truth
Since my most recent relationship ended six months ago, I’ve found myself with quite a bit of time on my hands. The two hours or so I’d spend every night talking to my long-distance boyfriend and the week we’d spend together every month are now blocks of time that I can use to concentrate on my personal goals for my future. And that’s exactly what I’ve done.
What I haven’t done is seriously considered dating again, and I just realized the real reason why.
If you’ve read my recent work, you know that I was upset about this person leaving my life as I truly love him and always thought that we would at least remain friends, no matter what happened between us. But yesterday I had a sudden realization that all started with a list.
Maybe I don’t want a relationship after all.
The List
I am a die-hard list maker and the list I’m referring to is one I created just last week on a huge 2 ft x 2 ft Post-it note that I hung on my office wall. I drew a line down the middle and on one side of the line, I wrote a list of actions I need to take to reach my goals. On the other side, I wrote down a list of things I was not going to worry about and leave the outcome to the Universe.
